February 2012
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Pretty Little Liars:
Mike: If your relationship is so much trouble, why not just let it go? It seems impossible that things will ever work out.
Aria: Look, when you love someone, it's worth fighting for no matter what the odds.
the stabbing pain when the person you love doesn’t believe that you actually love them.
:’(
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yeah, i don’t even know what sleep is at this point. i kept waking up hoping that you’d text me back, but knowing that you haven’t. my sheets smell like you and i seriously cuddled up in them with my bear when i was half asleep. but then of course my mind exploded into reality and i couldn’t take it. i haven’t practiced in days and i cancelled my lesson. Doc...
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“Don’t be so damn hard on yourself. Yeah, you screwed up. You’re not perfect,...”
– Stephanie Klein
(via anditslove)
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I can’t say enough how sorry I am.
I also can’t say enough how much I love you.
Talk to me about it.
Take out all your anger on me too.
I’m trying to do everything I can while you’re there and I’m here.
It’s killing me.
All of this is killing me too.
beannnny:
Just know I love you. I love you more than words can’t describe. I’ll give you your space just know its killing me inside. I love you so much, don’t ever forget that.
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I'm so out of it.
Focus, Teresa. Things have to get better with time.
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my chest hurts.
i’m scared.
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when i’m really sad, i tend to skip meals and sleep a lot.
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Joe, please don’t think everything I’ve been saying to you is lie. You’re mine. And I’m yours. There’s no one else like that. No one at all. I love you and it’s been that way this whole time. Don’t believe what your mind has been telling you because I am ALL yours. Believe me. I love you so much.
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i haven’t felt this way in a long time now.
but this time it’s my fault.
how do i make it up to you?
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i would give anything to hold your hand, look into your eyes and tell you i love you.
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the only reason i touched my trombone today was for a sectional and it only lasted 30 mins.
i don’t want to practice. it doesn’t make me feel better anymore.
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i took a two hour nap to try to escape my self loathing but then my dreams just continued the hatred. i know it’s entirely my fault.
and then you still text me and tell me you love me on top of it all which gives me that hope that things will get better. that you’ll really let me fix everything.
so, all i can do is let time go on and eventually we’ll both heal and our...
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today will suck
after my first class, i’m thinking about skipping the rest of the day
i need a mental day
lay and sleep and nothing else
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i’m so lucky. extremely lucky that i got a second chance. if i fuck up again, it’s over. just like that. everything for the past 6 years that we’ve been through will be gone if i do this again. i’m not afraid that i will because i won’t let it happen again. but i know right now and for a while, i will have this label. that i _____ and i am ashamed. completely ashamed....
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the whole day passed and i’m finally hungry.
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i could honestly just go to bed now because who am i kidding? i’m going to fail. i was planning on studying all day but because of this emotional stuff going on, i couldn’t mentally start studying until about an hour ago. and i just don’t know shit. and i really just don’t care anymore. i’m emotionally drained.
but wow, you must love me. as much as you’re...
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trust me, i’m disgusted in myself too. it’s okay though. i understand. i deserve it. you have every right to be angry with me.
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i can’t concentrate on studying. i just don’t care. i care about you and us and what’s going on more. but at the same time, you won’t respond to me. and all i want to do is scream and sob and then crawl into a hole and never come out. i wish i didn’t hurt you. i wish i could take it back. i wish that you’ll have it in your heart to forgive me eventually and to...
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i hurt the person i love and i can’t do anything but cry about it right now.
i am so stupid.
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i can’t change what i did. and what i did makes me a terrible person. i don’t deserve you. i know that you always say that about me, but you don’t lie to me. you would never do what i did to you. i know i don’t deserve your trust at this point so i don’t expect it. i really hate myself right now.
it doesn’t help anything, but i’m so sorry.
i really hope...
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too many feeeeeelings
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also, i feel icky from last night and i have to spend the rest of my afternoon studying for my music history exam tomorrow which i’ll probably fail anyway.
i just don’t care though. i really do miss Joe too much right now. :’((((
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11 days. i can do that right?
so druuuuuuuuuuuunk
like omg
and my boyfriend is awesome
and my friend, chrysten, is so cool
weeeeee
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oh and i had such a shitty night of sleep. awful dreams. they started off fun and whatever but then they ALL ended badly and i woke up for every single one. then i get your text. so i’m freaking out but too angry to respond and i couldn’t go back to sleep for a while. and i have to be in Whalen to play for high school seniors thinking about coming here next year and that is the last...
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and if stuff like that continues to happened i definitely won’t be okay with you going okay out.
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god i hate being this way. i can’t tell him he can’t go out with friends and drink without me, because i do it (granted, the last times i’ve been drunk was with him and then the next time with family). and i hate every second knowing that he isn’t in his room. he’s out with whoever and he has to go to his room eventually completely drunk. i get so anxious and i wish i...
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college is fun
going to amanda’s apartment with the rest of troupe; it won’t be crazy because we all have to get up early tomorrow to play for the audition day tomorrow (every audition day that ithaca SoM has, a certain number of groups play for the auditionees and tomorrow’s our day)
she also got me more stuff for this weekend; 3rd weekend in a row having some crazy party...
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numbsex:
i wanna date someone who would just lay in my bed naked with me for days and eat pizza and take showers together
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hahaha the best phone call ever is when you call your boyfriend and he was sleeping but still answers so he’s half asleep and about 8 minutes into the phone call he finally really wakes up and is like, “HOW LONG HAVE I BEEN ON THE PHONE AND WHAT TIME IS IT?!”
yeah, funny stuff. :D <3
